fed and pays for medical bills (a lot of which is not covered by health insurance). I always planned… and hoped I could cope, but my health got worse causing me to freak out a lot and cry for about a week… through that again, no matter how very much I would like to be able to work, health goes first… everything possible to sort out the above mentioned health problems. Normal doctors could not help me, so… for a bit and forget about my health for a short time, even if after I type this I will go and lie down